Her Last Words - Courtney Parker


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*** I HAVE A NEW CHANNEL! *** This is a new channel with my boyfriend! Check us out! Youtube: www.youtube.com/FinkerMash Twitch: www.twitch.tv/FinkerMash Instagram: @FinkerMash Twitter: www.twitter.com/FinkerMash Facebook: />Twitter: />Instagram: courtneymayparker Snapchat: courtneymay96 A while ago I wrote my own lyrics to the song "Perfect Couple" by Fozzy and Van C, I spent a really long time on perfecting them and didn't want them to go to waste so I recorded this, I originally spoke it but then realised singing it sounded slightly better. I know I'm not a good singer at all and the point of uploading this was not to show off my voice or anything like that, I might get made fun of for making this, I just didn't want to waste something I spent so long writing. So, I hope at least a few people enjoy this as it's taken me a lot of courage to upload. Music: Atmosphere - The Last To Say (Instrumental) ***LYRICS*** Just an average girl She always wore a smile She was cheerful and happy for a short while Now she's older, things are getting colder Life's not what she though, she wishes someone had told her She told you she was down, you let it slip by So from then on she kept it on the inside She told herself she was alright But she was telling white lies Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves 'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed She had no friends at school, all alone she sat And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate Things were going down, never really up And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut She knew exactly what she had to do next Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild "Look at me now, are you proud of your precious child?" But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame It was the world that should bow down it's head in shame She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon Just don't think, it'll all be over soon The chair fell down as she took her final breath It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death Her Mum walks in, she falls down to the floor And now nothing can take back what she just saw The little girl that she raised is just hanging there Her body's pale and her face is violently bare She sees the note and unfolds it with care All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?" She starts reading as the tears roll down her face "I'm sorry Mum but this world is just not my place I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in I've come to realise this world's full of sin There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race It's a disgrace, I was misplaced Born in the wrong time, and in the wrong place It's okay though, 'cause you'll see me soon You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon As it shines bright, throughout the night And remember everyone's facing their own fight But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter So let the world know, that I died in vein Because the world around me, is the one to blame And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone 'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on That's what they use to tell me, all those kids at school So I'm going by the law majority rules My presence on this earth is not needed any longer And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger You're the best friend, that I ever had Such a shame I had to make you so very sad But just remember that you meant everything to me And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight I'm watching over you, from the clouds above And sending down the purest and whitest dove To watch over you, and be my helpful eye So this is it world, goodbye."



Courtney Parker
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Paradise
Suicide doesn't stop the pain it passes it to someone else. Trust me I know from experience
Livid Dawn
Friend: “you can’t be depressed, you always laugh and smile!” Me: “so my acting is that good?”
Morgan Eisnhower
"It's a disgrace, I was misplaced Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place" represents my life
Mrs. Bunny
I’m not suicidal but if a truck was coming at me at full speed I wouldn’t make much of an effort to get away
Ava Faye
My language I’m ok: I’m not ok Go away: stay with me and hug me Allergies: Depression/SH/anxiety Cat scratches: Cutting My face is red because I’m allergic to my makeup: my face is red because I cried for 2 hours straight. I don’t need you: I need you more than anyone
Courtney Parker
To anyone asking if they can do a cover, feel free to I'd just like some credit in the bio or something :) and to anyone saying this describes how they feel, stay strong babes it will get better I promise! xx
Jenny The Phoenix
Friend: "Why are you so sad lately?" Me: "I just don't have the energy to hide it anymore."
worthless angel
Story: my ex girlfriend, Athena killed herself I broke down when it said about hanging yourself, she hung herself thank you I needed this I’m crying
Hayhay It'statsu
0-3 I wanted my mum 4-7 I wanted to own a cafe 8-10 I wanted a friend 11: I wanted to stop my sister 11-12 I wanted to do the same thing 12-14 I tried to die 15-I want all these things but most of all I want to survive I’m alive, I want to stay that way Because I’m a survivor I will be in pain forever, I will not let it drag me down Because I’m a survivor I will hurt, I will cry Because I’m a survivor, Are you?
Shannia Javier
i know im depressed but why I cant cut myself? Because i dont want my parents to be sad and see the child that they raise is just wasting her life.
Courtney Parker
Wow.. one million views? You guys are amazing! Thank you so much for all the kind words :)
Don Napier
Suicidal Kids Are Just Angels Who Want To Go Home 😇😔
Moja Andrews
At 5 want to be a nurse At 9 a teacher At 13 a nanny 14-17 i want to be died
Noel Scano
2019 anyone?! Edit: wow, thanks for all the likes!! I haven't got this many 😅
Bella HR
This reminds of a little girl at my old school named Kierra. She was so beautiful little girl who tried to hide the fact she was depressed. Nobody ever wanted to talk to her. Every time I tried to go over and talk to her she would mumble, But there was this mean boy at my school who would put his hands on her! He upset so much. I knew she was depressed mainly because she would always wear long sleeves and I could see the blood stains on her sleeves😭 I did leave the school eventually. However, I always pray for hat little girl. OK look guys. I can't change her, she had social Anxiety. What else could I do??
x-Ars Opp
Born in the time and the wrong place like me 2 anyone else
Willow Edwards
So when I had first listened to this song I broke up in tears behind my ex-sister who was playing this song. She looked behind her to see me cry and said "why are you crying, its just a song." I intern said to her "just a song? this is 1 the best song ever 2 the first ever song to ever make me cry" and ever since that day whenever I have felt like just ending it I listen to this song and just let it all out. I have never came out to anyone about so plz don't judge me for this. PS. If you read this whole thing, thanks.
Sprinkler Asmr
I know nobody will read this, and that it will be lost in the sea of comments but Imma do it anyway.. I was born in Germany and moved back and fourth from Australia to the Uk. When I landed in Year 4 I told some people where I was born...they told everyone and said I was on "Hitlers Side". I later on became friends with two girls, Lily and Sienna. I eventually really liked Lily (As a friend) but started not liking Sienna. Sienna tried to take my Friendship away from Lily and that's when she started bullying me. For 2 years I battled with her, trying to keep Lily away from her grasp when I won. A battle I had fought for 2 years had finally ended and I was the winner. A year or two later Lily brought a knife to school. She threatened to cut me with it, that's when I had broke down. A battle of bullying for two years, had just turned meaningless. She had stabbed me in the back, betrayed me. Now my self esteem is at rock bottom and I trust No one except Freya, the only one who had believed me, the only one who fought battles for and with me. Now I am in year 9 and I no longer see Freya, I no longer trust anyone... -Thank you for reading This depressed kids story
Temu Temacular
It's kinda funny everytime i talk to someone who's depressed and tell them how i was theyre like " Jesus youre depressed" I mean w h a t
Summer Choraitis
At the age of 6 i wanted to be a vet At the age of 7 i wanted to be a zookeeper At the age of 8-9 i wanted to be a zoologist At the age of 10-11 i wanted to die and not be bullied anymore
Makiyah Wiggins
and yet I I was happy B4 I listened to this song and felt sad just to remind myself happiness is temporary
Amira Naz3r
Goodbye 3:34 Thanks for the like
Mara Smith
I had 7 suicide attempts and many moths in hospitals..... but guess what today I am now 4 months clean... you can do it I believe in you no matter what you are going through it will be ok! Get help from people you trust you will find a way! Stay strong ❤️
Maya curry
It's 2019 and every time I hear this I still end up crying!!!!😭😭😭💔💔💔
Baelib
Just an average girl She always wore a smile She was cheerful and happy for a short while Now she's older Things are getting colder Life's not what she thought, she wished someone had told her She told you she was down, you let it slip by So from then on she kept it on the inside She told herself she was alright But she was telling white lies Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves 'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it Didn't think she fit in, everyone seemed to miss it She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed She had no friends at school, all alone she sat And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake But no one cared enough to save her from this self-hate Things were going down, never really up And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut She knew exactly what she had to do next Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck She wrote a letter with her hand shaking wild "Look at me now! Are you proud of your precious child?" But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame It was the world that should bow down its head in shame She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon Just don't think, it'll all be over soon The chair fell down as she took her final breath It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death Her Mom walks in, she falls down to the floor And now nothing can take back what she just saw The little girl that she raised is just hanging there Her body's pale and her face is violently bare She sees the note and unfolds it with care All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?" She starts reading as the tears roll down her face "I'm sorry Mom but this world is just not my place I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in I've come to realize this world's full of sin There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race It's a disgrace, I was misplaced Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place It's OK though, 'cause you'll see me soon You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon As it shines bright throughout the night And remember everyone's facing their own fight But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter So let the world know, that I died in vain 'Cause the world around me, is the one to blame And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone 'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school So I'm going by the law "majority rules" My presence on this earth is not needed any longer And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger You're the best friend that I ever had Such a shame I had to make you so very sad But just remember that you meant everything to me And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight I'm watching over you from the clouds above And sending down the purest and whitest dove To watch over you, and be my helpful eye So this is it, world, goodbye."
Daxtar66
its scary how much i relate to this
Izabella Earnest
I don't get bullied. I'm not insecure. I don't have family problems. I don't want attention. I don't care what people think of me. I don't feel peer pressure. I just don't think my life is going anywhere significant. All the hard work I put in isn't really going to amount to anything. Life is just repetitive. I go to school and get good grades so that I can get into advanced classes. I get good grades in advanced classes so that I can get into a good college. I get good grades in a good college so that I can graduate and get a good job. I use the money from that job to buy food so that I can feed a family and put my children into school, just so that they can do the exact same thing I did. And what's it all for? So that the human race can keep progressing. But what's the point? I won't be here anymore anyway? And what are we progressing towards? We don't have an overall goal at all. So what's the point of just continuing a meaningless cycle of pain.
Andzia Inna niż inne
(long story) Soo I was bullied. Once I tried to kill myself. I took 20 painkillers and many other pills and I was going to sleep and than I realized that I would ruin life of my grandpa and grandma (I live with them and love them so much) and I started crying and telling myself how selfish I can be. But it was too late I started praying and begging all in tears. I woke up and I didn't even had bellyache. I was healthier than ever. Few months later I told my (ex)bestfriend about it and at first she was supportive and then I realized that she told about it to few people and about that my mom was a .. prostitute (sadly she used to be my grandma told me) I was so mad but I didn't do anything about it. Then (10.10.18) she broke up out friendship. I knew it was toxic, but she was my only "real" friend. I started cutting myself. On thighs and arms so nobody could see. I knew I had depression but I was too scared to tell someone. But finally my family noticed that I acted strange and I decided to agree to go to the psychologist and now I don't have too. I have 3 best friends. I am chasing my dreams and in a year I am finally ending this stupid school and I am going to middle school. And btw my Ex-bestfriend thinks she is that "poor" baby and she always act depressed and ughh I wanna smack that bitch so much when I see her but that's ok. Because I am better than her. Literally. She got barely D's, E's, F's and sometimes B's and A's while I got only A+'s, A's and sometimes B's. HA that bitch think she's better than me HA (lmao I am getting weird) ok back to reality. Therapy changed my life I mean I am suffering from anxiety and sometimes it's really hard. I am still crying almost everyday but I know it's gonna get better. I am so sorry I know it's long and boring and thank u so muuuuch if you read that I just wanna say don't trust people who seems to be toxic and don't be afraid of talking to professionals and your family because they care about you more than they care about themselves (family). I am sorry for my english and have a the best day ever and never give up. ♥
Shit Stain
Age 5 I wanted to be a police Age 8- I wanted to die Age-9- suicide attempts Age-10- I almost died but I sadly survived Age-11- life was slowly falling apart Age 12-My life fell into little pieces Age-13 it got good Age-14 forgot about suicide Never attempt suicide it’s not a good thing I know we all want to die sometimes but u will get through it I promise 😊😊 But some people don’t get trough dying 😭 there parents cry 😭
John Paul
2019?
Pam
That moment you realize strangers in the comments care more about you than your family
Eleanor Ravengirl
wow. i'm totally fine, yet i listen music like this... do u think this warns me of smthng coming in the future?
Sophie Sprules
Who’s crying I’m definitely not (eh) 😭😭
Tyrion Lannister
Finally a song that describes my life
kbish :3
to anyone reading this, i dont know you. but everything will be ok. you probably feel like crap right now, but stay strong and keep fighting. in the end, you will have gotten over this. dont let anyone bring you down, you are amazing in your own way. you will get through this, i know it. you can do this xxx
Jenna Sturgeon
Just remember that you are important and there are people who love you even if it doesn’t seem like it things will get better. There’s always light at the end of the tunnel
COOKIEMONSTER
At the age of 12 I tried to kill myself a boy saved my life I’m so great full no one will know what I did and I’m glad but my boyfriend is the reason I’m alive and I’m so happy that I didn’t end it bc he’s the greatest boy I have ever met
The Tea
Not one person loves you Not one person cares about you Not one person says hi to you everyday Not one person thinks you’re pretty But, Guess what.... My name is Not one person... ❤️💜
Sharkbaitavry
Thank you to all the ones who commented. I have been depressed but seeing your comments made me feel like I had it a little then some of you. I wish everyone here the best of luck with there issues and hope you get healed. Just remember you helped me and probably many others, once again thank you.
Kaylee Johnson
I told my friend I was depressed and she said “no you can’t be cause ur always smiling and cheerful!” Well things aren’t always as they seem😔😔
Philip Chad
Student: I'm sad People: You just had a bad day Student: I'm lonely People: Make some friends Student: I cut my wrist and I go home crying everyday... People: You just want attention Student: *Suicides* People: _We never saw the signs..._
Art Axolotl
My friend and I felt really sad and depressed, so I talked to my friend about it, she said 'I'm pretty sure people who smile are the time aren't depressed' If only she knew
Ruthie Boo
"Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on" I felt that
Maddax
Hello everyone, this is a story of how i met a girl that had major depression and how i was trying to help her bare the pain and suicidal thoughts. It all started 5 years ago, when we met on a random game we were playing, i didnt know she had depression at that time. But, at after a long time we started getting closer to eachother, she told me she's depressed, has social anxiety, her father left her, and her mom is drinking wine or alcohol basically everyday. No one's friends with her at school and some other stuff.. Today, we're both together as a couple, we're writing to eachother everyday, having smiles, playing games, usuall stuff. Yet, she's cutting from time to time, its not so bad as it was, she told me im the reason she's living. I love her. But the thing is, i'm scared that she'll stop responding to my messeges one day, and will never come back. She's my reason to keep trying. The thing in this messege is, that i by myself was able to help her. She keeps telling me that i saved her from suicide at least 3 times. I'm really scared that she'll try to do it one day, and she'll succeed. To be honest i dont know if i dont have depression myself. Thank you to all who are reading this, and to those who belive me, i just wanted to write this down. Thank you for reading this again. Have a nice day. Please never give up too. There is someone out there for you. You just gotta keep seeking for him/her. Please. Don't attempt suicide.
FinkerMash
Holy Moley! On track to 20 MILLION VIEWS?! Letting you all know I am in fact still alive, I'm just on this channel now. Make sure to have a look! I love you all x
DeadLines
Holy shit this explains my life exactly I told my mom I was sad and she didn't care and all summer last year I wore sweaters because of all the cuts And my school saw them and I blamed it on my cat and my eyes are dull now and I was bullied until I was 14 and I'm only 15
Hannah Thomas
0-4 I wanted to be a vet 4-8 I wanted to be a teacher 8-10 had a happy life 10-13 started to be depressed but didn't worry 13-14 (now) want to die
Derpy Cookie
I don’t want to be alive but im scared of death at the same time
Lily Milly
10 suicide attempts told over a hundred times im worth it depressed almost all the time cutted for 2 years this was me for the last 3 years and 3 times i almost did get my wish but for some reason the doctors and god wouldnt let me die,my parents disowned me a year ago for being gey which didnt help so i moved in with my grandparent this year 2019 ive sober so far but its rough still but ive stoped cutting so if i can do it i now you can too just keep fighting and dont give up even if you feel like no one cares there will always be someone who cares
Sandeena yeten
We're all suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide is never the answer
Aileen Callahan
Still cut. Still want to die. Still have no friends. I have depression and anxiety and so many other things. People say I'm not depressed and i tell them well u have ur opinion and i have the facts. Then i walk away leaving them in shock. I have no friends because of my anxiety. No friends cuz I'm the shy kid and someone who no one trusts. No friends.😔😭
Gacha _Kylla
Me: *depressed state* Others: Are u okay? Me: Yes I am! *smiles* Others: okay Me: *sleepy* Others: Are you okay?! It seems like you aren't! Me: Im just sleepy go away... Others: No! You are not okay! Me in mind: *why if im in a depressive state... they seem like to not care? But when im not.. they seem to care?*
Amanda Moore
I have depression,badly. I'll tell you my story. First day of fifth grade and I knew a lot of people, I was good friends with a girl ,Maddie but,a new girl was here!! she was broke down and I could tell. So I told her to come to where I was sitting she did and I looked her dead in the eyes and said "it's ok I'm here for you" and hugged her. So we are now in 2019 yeah... So it is all gone down hill from the first day of school I think she turned me into a lesbian because we are "best friends" but... best friends? No, to good to be true. I always am the one picking up after them and crying in the corner of the classroom. One day kk walks over and asks me "are you ok?" And I say "yes I'm fine" then she walks off saying nothing I love her but I'm not real to her... Your skin isn't paper don't cut it Your head isn't a target don't shoot it Your neck isn't a hanger don't hang it Your body isn't a book don't judge it Your life isn't a movie don't end it I don't want to live but I'm so scared to die
Kathryn Weaver
Listen. I am not bullied. I don't care how I look. I act funny. I act happy. But... if I get to be happy, then why does it run away? If I get to laugh, why does it turn to tears? Last night was Valentines Day, and, therefore, my school's Valentine's dance. My friend convinced me to come, and I had the most fun I have had in months. But... when those hours of the dance ended, and I got into my mom's car to leave, I soon turned empty again. My smile had faded. My laugh had gone to silence. I see in my mind, a girl, in a pale blue dress, with her eyes a pale, glossy, blue, hanging from her ceiling fan, with no regret. That girl is me. Problems lead to solutions. But, if I have no problems, I have no solutions.
Shell Snow
Student: I'm depressed because no one cares... school: No you're not, you've just had a bad day. just get over it already. student: I cut my wrists and I don't want to live anymore... School: you're just saying that to get attention. student kills themselves. School: we never saw the signs...
minyoongis destiny
I don't know how long I can take my fight anymore. Depression is like a war if you fight it you either win or loose but if you ignore it and hide you'll get bombed and then you just try to rebuild everything that's destroyed as when you're finished you may have peace for a while but then comes the next bomb and on and on and when you finally realise that you can't rebuild because you have no resources left do you really try to fight? If there's nothing left. Nothing. Not even Hope? Well I don't
Red [Gaming]
I've tried killing myself 17 times in my life. No one's willing to listen to me. So, i'm guessing i don't matter. That's... I'm okay.. I just wish someone would actually care.
Amanda Robinson
The ones who talk about their self harm and depression and are practically screaming for people to know are not the ones to watch if they make the mistake to take it, its the ones who never say anything never ask for help never tell the people around them, they are who are serious about it.
Kimberly Hernandez Hermosillo
Friend: You are so happy Mind: Wow my acting is so good. You don't even see the pain I'm going threw😞. Oh well I don't really care.
XxKxXk ALIVExXgamerXx
No one loves you. No one says your beautiful No one greets you if you greet them. No one cares about you.. But, Guess what? My name is No one.. ❤️
Pheebes 2000
2015- me: I want to die Best friend- no don’t say that people need you 2018/19- me: I want to die Best friend- same here we can die together! Who relates to this?
Ally Stayton
I've tried to commit suicide 4 times now but my friend she was going through something really bad and she hung herself and I won't ever forget her point to this is suicide doesn't help it makes the people around u hurt worse.....like me
Guavapineapples mSp
My mum says “it’s not the world that’s cruel it’s the people who are in it...”
Simba916k
It's sad that the only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I don't want to hurt anyone...
QUEEN VIKI UwU
You just wanna hang youraelf up there To let go of everything....then wake up. In heaven not assemend To ne there becuase it was a better place ive bene wantening To kill myself for 3 years know hhavent told anyone ...just this song is me its what i Feel ... This is me
Daniel Walter
"We're all suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide is never the answer"... Saw this comment and it really hit me, It's worrying how true this is
Teddy Rose
Anyone who os depressed this is a letter from someone who has depression: Someday it'll be okay don't worry it WILL get better. I promise, and I know it's so hard to believe that it'll be fine. But it will and so will you. And later in your life you'll be thankful that you didn't kill yourself and those scars and bruises and marks on your body are a perfect map of impurities that will have brought you to success and happiness. Just remember you were put into this world for a reason, there is a reason your here and someday you'll know why. Remember your not a waste of apace no matter who says you are. But please know you can and will make it and if you ever need someone to talk to, or vent to please message me on instagram my account is @_chubby_introvert_ . You can message me anytime you need and I'll try to help and answer. Stay alive and be patient with yourself, and don't worry about being scard to message me. I'll always be here, you are loved!❤
Sapphire Cameron
“Suicidal kids are just angels who want to go home.” I want to go home now.
KayTheDragon87 gaming and gacha
After 8 suicide attempts throughout my life... Over 9 years of therapy... Today... Is a special day.... Today was my last day of therapy
bath TFC jr.
I found this song like 2yrs ago and I still listen to it 💞❤️ 💞
Mae RBLX//blueghost
I never let anybody see I’m sad because I can’t let anyone worry about me. My past holds me back like heavy metal chains, it stops me from loving anyone, it stops me from opening up, it stops me from showing emotion- scratch that, it stops me from FEELING emotion, and I’m not who I was before. The sweet baby from eleven years ago is gone. The sad girl from five years ago is here to stay.
Alexis Davenport
" But you've been so happy" Sometimes being happy is easier explaining to people then being so sad that living is just another excuse to self harm
Blu_ Rie
Im telling you 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you Keep on fighting♡
Tisha Sahota
Roses are red, Violets are blue, the sugar bowl"s sweet and so are you:) But now the roses are wilted, the violets are dead, the sugarbowl's empty and my wrists are stained red...
Beth Kellie
I started balling when my cousin showed me this song😥😥😖😖😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Anonymous Person
I always try to cut myself but before i can i forget what i went to the kitchen to do and then i get something out of the fridge thinking thats why im there and then quickly realize that i went there to cut myself... Then i back away from the kitchen... Thats a dangerous place to be.
Ellise Cooper
Im NoT cRyInG!? yOu ArE! forreal tho, suicide is never the answer. life goes on, but one day, happiness will choose you. just be patient and think about tomorrow, not suicide. I promise you, all the bad things come first.
Mr.Guy man
Every time I hear that line, I get a strong desire to hurt those kids at school who said she was nothing to be dwelled on
imi
*You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter* This got to me.
Jaden Kelley
I attempted suicide last night. Did it work? No. Am I happy abt that....? ...No
Carmen Ionita
If my life could be a film, tbh u would cry the whole way through. I'm only 12 and I feel rlly sad when people say 'how would u know what depression feels like, ur too young to understand'. Well I should be but sadly I went through a lot my whole life and I had no choice in happiness; I had to live like that for a long time
DyssLek Sic
it feels like a lot of people here are bragging about depression and not only is it offensive to people who are ACTUALLY depressed, it is also not true. people who have depression dont go around telling everyone about it. people with depression dont like telling people they have depression because they have damn depression. you guys need to grow up and learn what being depressed really is, it's not caused by your friend stealing your crayons.
Maria George
Have you ever been hurt by someone you look up to so bad you stop feeling anything at all? And then something happens that makes you feel again and you feel everything? Every word, every hurt, every tear comes rushing back to you? It's like waking up in the morning remembering what you tried to forget the previous night. Because I have, and I just want to feel something again. I feel like giving up on this fight.
kpop/anima 4 life
I've had around 6 suicide attempts have been to multiple therapist I spent most of my nights crying myself to sleep having nightmares of what those people did to me they used me for their sexual needs I was only six years old my parents almost died but it's okay right I mean did it hurt me a lot I sometimes still wonder why am i here because I seriously think the world accidentally put me here by mistake so many people have it much worse but it's hard to focus on people who have it worse the nap causes you to think even more about how less important you are that you're not a person they should be spending their time on
K-POP trash
no one notices until you're gone
doRA the EXPLORAAA
I always listen to this at 4am. I end up crying. cause I relate so much.. no one cares about me.. over 10+ suicide attempts many cuts on my legs and arms.. all I say to people is.. im fine. but im not..
Scarlett Renfroe
People are leaving my life because I’m to “depressed” I don’t think I can do this anymore I’m the reason people leave
Marisol Silva
it’s 2018 and i cry everytime i listen to this song
Kanaya Blue
Me:I'm depressed friend: no your not stupid
Lasskit Gacha
0-3 I was happy 4-7 I wanted to be an archeologist 8-11 I wanted to be a photographer 12 I hate how I look. I think I’m ugly and fat. School distracts me from my self hate but not for long. A few days ago I cut myself
koala squad is the best
This made me cry 😭😭😭😭😭😢😢😢😢
Ashleigh Roe
This actually is making me cry 😭😭😭
Naomi-chan {dark,bad,depressed}
Anybody else watching this on 2018? 😭 Or am I the only depressed one left😭
Connie 11
It’s a special day for me this is the day I tried to kill myself last year (the second) 💔
Tea
I'm not a crier but, *this brought me to tears..*
Peachy Kim
I hate that nowadays people joke about depression and mental illnesses, I'm Depressed but every time i try to tell my friends they just joke about it, if i tell my parents they won't even believe me, there's no one else to tell.... So i just keep all of it to myself
- Elished
I started crying...the text is so beautiful.
Michi Chiharu
At age 5 i wanted to be a teacher At the age 8 i wanted ti be an artist Age 11 a youtuber 12-13 age i want to be dead
Anjali Mahesh
I'm honestly just overwhelmed with sadness. Everyone here in this comment section left such negative comments. I'm not suicidal but I'm not popular either, but as I grew older, I realised that most people can't stand up for themselves like I can. It's not everyday you see a bully saying sorry to everyone for hurting their feelings, but then again, most of the time, they don't. People turn to suicide for happiness, thinking that when they no longer are living, it's an amazing feeling, but actually... You don't have anymore feelings. I'm sorry if I've said anything wrong because I don't have any experience with suicide. I'm a happy person, but if you've taken this comment offensively, just know that I didn't mean it in any harmful way. I know my words wouldn't make such a huge impact, saving many people's lives but all I'm asking for if for you to know that you are loved, if not by anyone you know personally, by me, because I'm always here for you, even if I don't know you ❤️