Her Last Words - Courtney Parker


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*** I HAVE A NEW CHANNEL! *** This is a new channel with my boyfriend! Check us out! Youtube: www.youtube.com/FinkerMash Twitch: www.twitch.tv/FinkerMash Instagram: @FinkerMash Twitter: www.twitter.com/FinkerMash Facebook: />Twitter: />Instagram: courtneymayparker Snapchat: courtneymay96 A while ago I wrote my own lyrics to the song "Perfect Couple" by Fozzy and Van C, I spent a really long time on perfecting them and didn't want them to go to waste so I recorded this, I originally spoke it but then realised singing it sounded slightly better. I know I'm not a good singer at all and the point of uploading this was not to show off my voice or anything like that, I might get made fun of for making this, I just didn't want to waste something I spent so long writing. So, I hope at least a few people enjoy this as it's taken me a lot of courage to upload. Music: Atmosphere - The Last To Say (Instrumental) ***LYRICS*** Just an average girl She always wore a smile She was cheerful and happy for a short while Now she's older, things are getting colder Life's not what she though, she wishes someone had told her She told you she was down, you let it slip by So from then on she kept it on the inside She told herself she was alright But she was telling white lies Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves 'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed She had no friends at school, all alone she sat And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate Things were going down, never really up And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut She knew exactly what she had to do next Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild "Look at me now, are you proud of your precious child?" But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame It was the world that should bow down it's head in shame She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon Just don't think, it'll all be over soon The chair fell down as she took her final breath It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death Her Mum walks in, she falls down to the floor And now nothing can take back what she just saw The little girl that she raised is just hanging there Her body's pale and her face is violently bare She sees the note and unfolds it with care All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?" She starts reading as the tears roll down her face "I'm sorry Mum but this world is just not my place I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in I've come to realise this world's full of sin There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race It's a disgrace, I was misplaced Born in the wrong time, and in the wrong place It's okay though, 'cause you'll see me soon You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon As it shines bright, throughout the night And remember everyone's facing their own fight But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter So let the world know, that I died in vein Because the world around me, is the one to blame And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone 'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on That's what they use to tell me, all those kids at school So I'm going by the law majority rules My presence on this earth is not needed any longer And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger You're the best friend, that I ever had Such a shame I had to make you so very sad But just remember that you meant everything to me And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight I'm watching over you, from the clouds above And sending down the purest and whitest dove To watch over you, and be my helpful eye So this is it world, goodbye."



Courtney Parker
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Paradise
Suicide doesn't stop the pain it passes it to someone else. Trust me I know from experience
Isaiah Sixkiller
Your skin isn’t paper so don’t cut it Your neck isn’t a hanger so don’t hang it Your size isn’t a book so don’t judge it Your life isn’t a movie so don’t end it
harrmia 05
"You don't look depressed though." "Oh yeah, I forgot to bring my literal dark cloud with me."
Morgan Buck
Your life isn't an ad, don't skip it.
Jet Packinski
"The little girl that she raised was just hanging there"....i broke....
Nancy Choudhary
This song makes me cry and especially there where her mom reads her letter. Tears do not come easily for me from hearing sad songs but after hearing this song, I cried 😢 Today I'm really proud of myself and the one who's reading this comment that we're still alive! The author has really heart-touching skills :) Raise your hands with me if you're feeling same and I hope that you're not alone ☺
Girl Next Door
*I'm* -hurt,depressed,sad,heart broken,angry,confused,dead inside,unloved,abused,in pain,cold- *Fine* *thanks guys for your amazing support but words can't change actions made by others
Milica Škiljević
Theme? Suicide. Emotion? Depression. Hotel? Trivago.
awesomegamer92L
Read this if you have ever felt alone, depressed, suicidal, lost, scared, worthless, abandoned, or anything of that nature, this is for you You Are Beautiful. You Are Wanted. You Are Wonderful. Don't quit on yourself. Don't hurt yourself. You are worth the world and nobody wants to see you suffering. This is not the end. The way you feel right now will pass. Peoples minds will change. Things WILL get better. We love you and are always here for you. Do NOT do something permanent over something temporary. You're better than that. All stars need to see darkness before the light. And always remember, Don't change so people will like you. Be yourself & the right people will find and love the real you. Your own unique Mindset always trys to engage in the right ways Now read the first letter of every word You Matter! no matter what other people may say. Always know this is true. It helps. You are worth my time to write this. I do care. <3 Continue on <3 be a soldier. Fight that war. Because YOU can. I believe in you. I'm rooting for you! Good luck! Please pass this on to other videos!
Panda_ Party22
"Everyone dies in the end, why rush it?"
Courtney Parker
Wow.. one million views? You guys are amazing! Thank you so much for all the kind words :)
Sunshine xo
*I'm dealing with depression*
Bibbity Bobbity
I know God gave us the gift to live on Earth, but am I the only one who is too scared to create suicide? I have fears. I fear for my family, I fear I'll go to hell for taking my life away, I fear I'll suffer during death.
n3v3rh4ppy
I'm -sad,depressed,suicidal,heartbroken- Fine
BellaTrix Urie
We are all depressed and suicidal people telling other depressed and suicidal people that life has much more meaning but don't believe it ourselves.
Courtney Parker
To anyone asking if they can do a cover, feel free to I'd just like some credit in the bio or something :) and to anyone saying this describes how they feel, stay strong babes it will get better I promise! xx
ツAprilTryyhard
I know nobody will probably take the time to read this. But I am honestly probably going to kill myself soon. I thought it was gone. But it just came back. I stayed up for 5 hours now just waiting for them to go away because it keeps me up at night. I don't know how to explain it or talk about it. I wrote a letter the last time I had these thoughts when I started cutting myself. But sadly I failed. I live in misery and I can barely sit at a table and just eat. This world would be better if you didn't have to suffer along the way. Hopefully one day I can be with my idol and the one I love the most. Sometimes I will just sit and stare and sometimes people will walk up to me and ask what I was looking at or what I'm thinking about. But there's just too much to explain just bottled up inside me is all this. I may look normal but I'm truly not normal and had a normal life. I've had to suffer from cancer for 4 years and for 2 of them I was stuck inside my house. LITERALLY. I couldn't leave whatsoever so then I lost my walking and I had to start crawling like a 2yo then I got a wheelchair and it was so much trouble to get me out of the house because my muscles were so weak my parent just gave up on me. I didn't eat for days straight until my aunt said something. Then I was in rehab for a month and a half and no one was with me much. My mom is the I one with a job paying for me and my brother and my dads drug addiction. So she had tough hours and my dad was cheating. Then I got a kidney stone and had to suffer for 2 weeks because if a misdiagnosis. Walking the halls at 2am hoping it will end soon. I haven't even ate for days while this was going in and after I was out I got pain pills that my dad took so he Could snort. Then I had ativan since I was diagnosed with leukemia which I have none of currently because my dad those too. So if you read through all of this. You're probably thinking what the fuck is going on? But there is still plenty more of my story. Why can't I just live without misery and sadness? I feel like I'm the only fucking one. I'm about to fucking just go insane right now. I wish I could let it all out unlike other fake people I talked to. Fucking fake asf gf that idgaf about anymore. Well at least not now. When I speak. I am speaking for many others too. I am just asking for help.
EpicShadow_ Girl24
I was getting bullied a year ago and i seriously wanted to die :(
Victoria Morgan
Im a manic depressive and this song hits home very hard. There have been days where ive came home from high school and wrote my suicide notes but then i could vividly see my parents in pain and being pushed over the edge and id cry my eyes out where i couldnt cry anymore. I love my parents too much to put them through that. No matter how much i hate myself and how badly depressed i am i cant do it... because all i can see is my parents dropping to their knees... and weeping over my body... i dont have that many people to talk to so ill just vent on youtube.... thanks for reading stranger.
Ender_Piggy
It’s so hard to keep going when you just seem to be a waste of space, someone who has friends but really doesn’t. Someone who makes self-deprecating jokes, but they’re never really jokes. You’re just trying to hide the pain with a grin and a laugh that nobody even listens to because who would listen to you? Who would listen to the girl who’s a nobody? The girl that the popular kids torment but she knows she can’t do anything about it because even though it hurts she can’t say it’s harrassment or bullying or anything because it’s not bad enough to classify as it. Who would listen to her screams for help and watch the tears fall as she steps off that chair, hangs on that rope, and whispers she’s sorry? Who would listen to that? But I promise you, it WILL get better. I tell myself that every day. I look at the teardrops on my pillows every day and tell myself it will get better. It may be hard to believe, but I promise you. I’m thirteen, but I’ve gone through a lot and have a lot of issues. People think my past isn’t very bad compared to some peoples’, but I’m still disabled, I still have seziures, I still have severe anxiety, I still have depression, I still have panic disorders, I still have so much. It’s hard to keep going, I know. But if you really need something to keep you going, think of the person you hold closest to your heart. Think of what kind of pain they’d be in if they lost you. Find someone you love and never let them go. My best friend is one of my biggest motivations to keep going. I’m in love with her. I want to spend the rest of my days with her, and I want those days to stretch till we’re old. ADHD OCD Asthma Generalized Anxiety Panic disorder Seziures Eczema Growth deficiency Vitamin D deficiency Occular migraines Vomiting spells Sound sensitivity Light sensitivity Motion sensitivity Insomnia Allergy to dust Supertaster Sensitive to pineapple Severely sensitive to pepper That’s probably not even all...
K-x-y Drip
You meet this girl in kindergarten. Shes very bright and smiles alot. Shes very positive than the others. She believes you should smile alot because she thinks being sad is a sign of sickness. You and her become best friends. Next year you leave her and shes okay with that, because everyone meets new friends right? Wrong! She meets new friends but still remebers you and wants you back. Years later, its 5th grade. The grade she knew something would happen. Everything goes wrong. She never told you she met a boy in Kindergarten and loved him. When she saw him, she thought she knew what love was. but she didnt. And it was wrong. And very sad. That boy and that girl dont talk until 5th grade. Some reason, he loves you. But when he finally tells you, you go a bit crazy with it and act strange. One day, hes looking so amazing and nice. From a distance, he looks like someone else. You tell him but you say that its nothing bad. You think he looks good. You signed up for afterschool and when it was time to go home, you secretly pull your phone out to talk to him. He doesnt reply to you cause you dont know hes ignoring you. You go home, he must've saw, because when he messaged you back, everything wrong happened. Your gasping and is about to cry. Why would he say things like something so horrible to you? You dont know that what you told him today hurt him. Then thats when you cry. But you both forgive each other. He replys afterwards "im not the one for you, your better of with someone else.." leaves the chat and never texts you back. You feel dumb. And want to restart that day all over to keep your mouth shut. But you cant. The next day, you dont talk to each other. Its sad. But your kind of fine. But for some reason later in the year, you want to be his friend again but your nerves.That girl never bothered him. But others did. All the time, they would talk about that girl and he gets annoyed. He doesnt want any toruble or business with you. One day, your very best friend hates you with him. You dont even know. Shes lied to you for a while. Later your going to your cousins house and message her "Does he hate me?" she replys "yea and i hate you too but i have the nerves to still talk to you." Your shocked. She doesnt open the message chat again. Later you talk about her to someone and that person tells her. Later at lunch your great with your other friends. She pushes your friend and says "so you have the nerve to talk about me but dont have the nerve to say it in my face?" That girl replys with a "why cant you say you hate me?" She goes back to talking but says "thats not the point." That girl that is being talk to said "so then whats the point?" you yell at her to leave you alone. The person you told about that person comes to you saying that the boy said "i wish you would burn in a fire and DIE" . You pause. The table you sit in with your other friends hear. Your friend you invited to your table stares at you and the other girl. Your about to cry. But you dont want anyone to see. Your friend you invited comes to you and pushes the girl to move her from me and shes her best friend. You go to the bathroom with her, and you cry. You tell her you didnt believe something this big would happen. You go outside because its time to go outside. You tell a teacher and both of them get in trouble. Except that girl, she got a pass. Which was so unfair. Since she was the one who started the mess. Months later, you feel like cutting and hanging yourself. But you dont do it, cause you have other people that believe in you. The End. ~ True Story ~ ~ This Person About The Story.. Is Me ~ ~ If You Stopped By To Read All This, Like it For Me Please ~ ~ And Comment How You Felt About This ~ 💔 Edit: Im still alive. And never killing myself. ❤💬
Katrina Wood
As I read the lyrics, and listen to this song, while crying, it gives me a weird peace. And it is funny it is keeping me from doing the same. I just wish the world was more kind, I wish people would smile more, and I wish people would stop judging. Even though people around you may not be the same race, color, etc. We all bleed the same, we all want the same thing, PEACE. But some Seek peace in different ways, like me. I just want to die. If you are reading this, I just wish you to be kind to others, we are all the same. Just because we might have different colored skin, belief, etc.. We all have a dark side to us, yes some worse than others, but we all have that cloud that looms over us. Just don't be so quick to judge. That Is how I almost lost my life. I just wanted to get out of this world. I did not care, I want to die so many ways. But this song opened my eyes. No matter what you are going through, stop and think. Think about what you have to live for. Trust me when I say this, we all have something to live for, or someone. Just think before you do. Suicide does not stop your pain, but it only passes to SOMEONE WHO CARES!! There is always someone, trust me I almost learned the hard way. Thanks for the eye opener. It kept me from killing my self. I know now that I am not alone. I never was. You aren't alone. None of us are , we all have someone. Thanks for reading this, if you got this far.
Devstarr Santiago
So this basically explains my whole life, but here's my story. I'm a boy who acts like a girl, you guys can hate but idc, I do this because I feel like I was born in the wrong body, and i am bisexual so I date boys and girls, this is not meant to cause hate. I just wanted to let you guys know this because I lost one of my internet best friend, and I'm quilting the social media she was being rude on.
Arianna Hudson
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Ruby Kitty
my sister when she was born before 6 years she died cause she suicided my mommy hated her and she hung up her i was crying alot now im moving from my house caude im moving to my cousin she will took care of me mommy and daddy hates ne now and whenever i hear her saying "SHES THE PROBLEM WHY SISTER DIED" - Mom "SHE HOPE SHE DIE IN HELL!" - Dad Im crying everyday at my cousin and shes saying me everything be fine by the way im only 11 years and i have a tablet that im typing my cosuin purchased me now 2 days ago
Daxtar66
its scary how much i relate to this
Justlaura
Will I become happy if I pretend long enough?
Mariana Almeida
2018?
Bethany Lynn
Im gonna write these lytics down and share them in class💔
Krishika Agarwal
People here are so sad. I want to help. Please let me. Here's my Snapchat krishika_11 Text me there. We'll talk. I'll be your friend. I understand it might not be easy to talk to a stranger. But hey, give it a try? You have got nothing to lose right?! Please, talk to me. I am here. And, I really mean it. And if you have made it this far, you have hope. I sincerely wish that you text me. -Krishika
Shell Snow
Student: I'm depressed because no one cares... school: No you're not, you've just had a bad day. just get over it already. student: I cut my wrists and I don't want to live anymore... School: you're just saying that to get attention. student kills themselves. School: we never saw the signs...
•*ANGIE •*
all I know is that I have fake people in my life 💔💔🤧😭
Charlotte averysheaven on ig
Suicidal people are just angels who want to return to heaven <3
Yee Yee
(Dont nees likes!! Just read and move on😂) I remember when I was terribly sad and could care less about people and school. I recall the day when I just didn't care anymore. That day I failed my math test, said thank you to all my friends (for the wonderful life they gave me), and didn't smile at all that day. When I got on the bus to go home, i told myself that this day was my last day. So I came home, waited until my brother went off to do his own things and then downed a bottle of pills. I remember just sitting on my bed thinking about all the stuff I would miss out on. I would miss out on seeing sunsets, having my first kiss, getting a dog, meeting new people. And when I fell asleep I had sleep paralysis with a creepy lady and a demon (ew). I woke up at 4am and started bawling. I pleaded and pleaded for something to take my life away. I listed everything I would miss in my head and cried. When I woke up I was completely fine (i took the wrong pills yay me😂 the pills were harmless) but i remember listening to this song and thinking that I didn't want to go. But now I'm good and healthy (sometimes😂). But yeah that's my story ig. (Ok, I tried to make it short and simply but it's just all over the place and all messy. I'm sorry!!)
oreo sandwich
1:15 begins the saddest part 😭
Makiyah Wiggins
and yet I I was happy B4 I listened to this song and felt sad just to remind myself happiness is temporary
banana4512
"this worlds full of sin" me: TRUE DAT! I know most of these comments are about depression and shit... but I had to lighten up these comments.
McFleury GaminZ
...I just found out my friend has depression...like me. He tells me he won't make it through the weekend. It scares me..
AJ M
I remember how depressed I was and how badly I wanted to end my life. Fast forward to today, I dedicated my life to helping others, so I’m a nursing assistant, and I have this amazing boyfriend who is supportive of everything I do. Just don’t give up, I promise you it’ll all be over soon. Can’t have a rainbow without a little rain. 😊
Ashley Brunnengraber
This is the first song that made me cry. :( Its hard to know that my BFF is going through this...
Tisha Sahota
Roses are red, Violets are blue, the sugar bowl"s sweet and so are you:) But now the roses are wilted, the violets are dead, the sugarbowl's empty and my wrists are stained red...
Cookies Queen_YT
Hi everyone probably no one is gonna read this..but I'ma do it anyways.. I've been bullied for years..punched and slapped..I nearly passed out and I'm a younge little girl.. I shouldn't be thinking this now but I wanna kill myself I was a mistake.. I have a best friend who means everything to me but something she will have to find someone new..cuz I won't be there soon.. I do selfharm I nearly killed myself in a bathroom once in school but then a teacher walked by so then I couldn't say goodbye.. I quickly walked to class with marks on my arm luckily no one saw it though..sometimes people look at me AN PROBABLY! think that I'm ugly or something.. no one likes me for who I am I need help but I can't find it. The only help is a bright light when I close my eyes.. I have a mom who is so cool and brothers and sisters who are there for me but someday there will have no younger sister soon. Just saying I love them and thanks for reading this comment I appreciate it. P.S If there's people put there that are 7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15 any ages! You don't realize people love you so much and they don't want you to leave.. just think about that. 💓💓😭💓💓
TheYonow
This world is weird and meaningless, and in this day and age a huge number of people just want to get it over with and die (me included) . But the thought of causing such pain for familey and friend is just too difficult to bear so guess we'll keep going until we can't anymore..
Ggg Ccffc
This was to much for my hart to take. This song reminds me of what happened to my sister she killed her self and I saw her body I ran over and checked her pulse none. My sister was taken from me and I pray no one will ever fell the same pain as I did on that day please if your fighting depression talk to someone please tell your family they love you with all their Hart You mean everything to someone don’t take that away WE ALL LOVE YOU 🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ FOREVER
Sasha Moonlight
People say that when people are depressed that they'll help them but they don't really they just try to act like your ok but your not I've been miserable since my Grandpa passed away 5 years ago when I was 6. 2 years later I had my first self harm thought and one month later I did it I found a razor blade in the tool box and I cut myself the sight of the blood made my me regret it but I'm still doing it to this day a few months ago I tried to end my life but it didn't work the rope I tried to tie to the banner snapped at that point I didn't know what to do to this day no one knows so I'm still fighting.Thank you for reading stranger.
x-Ars Opp
Born in the time and the wrong place like me 2 anyone else
KyraDea
I haven't been myself for months, and nobody even notices...
FaizyTunnel
I don't cry usually, but this song made me cry for a while. So gross, this world is... What are us, if there was no Earth and living houses? I hate me!
PartyKitten 998
"I'm fine" is just a disguise for "save me"
Li. A.
For all of you saying that you relate to this. Stay strong. Your are beautiful, and loved. I know dealing with depression and anxiety is really hard, believe me I’ve gone through it before. But you are all so amazing no matter who you are there will always be someone that loves you. I hope if you are going through this that you seek help and that you get better. 💜💜
Pam
That moment you realize strangers in the comments care more about you than your family
Viktoria Leon
Just an average girl 🧕 she always war a smile 😄 she was happy and chearful for a short while 😊 now she's older things are getting colder she told you she was down you let it slip by
Levi Playsツ
*Hi my name is Levi, I am from Hungary, I am 14 years old. I moved to germany 3 years ago, in school I have bad grades, I have no friends, and I don't really speak german. I learn 7/24 german but they don't send mercy on me. I am trying to make friends but noone want to speak to me because of my bad german. I can't do this anymore.* *you may cringe, laugh, hate on this comment, but I can't do nothing about it.* *Thanks if you read my little story*❤😔
Crazy Amelia Hehe
I feel like singing this to my parents and killing my self....
SimplyxNicole
My mom and I had an argument, about why I've been doing terrible in all my subjects at school, and it's because I feel like i don't belong here anymore bc even if I do study for exams, I always fail them.. And my mom is always like "You're not studying hard enough!" And it hurts me more than it hurts her bc she wants a "Perfect Daughter" since im her only daughter. My brothers know how depressed I am because of exams, yet my mom does nothing but yell at me.. Soon enough, when im dead, she'll realise how terrible she treated me....
trash
*You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter* This got to me.
Rebecca Mozirer
I feel so close to this song
Magical Fox
All the lyrics: Just an average girl She always wore a smile She was cheerful and happy for a short while Now she's older Things are getting colder Life's not what she thought, she wished someone had told her She told you she was down, you let it slip by So from then on she kept it on the inside She told herself she was alright But she was telling white lies Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves 'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed She had no friends at school, all alone she sat And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate Things were going down, never really up And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut She knew exactly what she had to do next Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck She wrote a letter with her hand shaking wild "Look at me now! Are you proud of your precious child?" But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame It was the world that should bow down its head in shame She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon Just don't think, it'll all be over soon The chair fell down as she took her final breath It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death Her Mum walks in, she falls down to the floor And now nothing can take back what she just saw The little girl that she raised is just hanging there Her body's pale and her face is violently bare She sees the note and unfolds it with care All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?" She starts reading as the tears roll down her face "I'm sorry Mom but this world is just not my place I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in I've come to realize this world's full of sin There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race It's a disgrace, I was misplaced Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place It's OK though, 'cause you'll see me soon You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon As it shines bright throughout the night And remember everyone's facing their own fight But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter So let the world know, that I died in vain Because the world around me, is the one to blame And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone 'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school So I'm going by the law, Majority rules My presence on this earth is not needed any longer And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger You're the best friend that I ever had Such a shame I had to make you so very sad But just remember that you meant everything to me And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight I'm watching over you from the clouds above And sending down the purest and whitest dove To watch over you, and be my helpful eye So this is it, world, goodbye."
Lilly H
i find myself here every day. just to see that there are other people like me. other people who suffer. every single day. i honestly question why i‘m still here. my life is literally falling apart and i have a mental breakdown every day and there‘s nothing i can do about it. and the worst thing is that i can feel how i‘m getting more and more depressed every day, you know. every time i‘m alone, i start crying. then, when a friend calls or meets me, i put the mask back on.
Caitlin The self taught gymnast
To everyone who reads this, I hope you are okay! I’ll have to admit I’m not but I’m going to get through this battle and so are you! If no one else does I love you and when you’re feeling depressed think about this girl who is fighting with you and for you! Don’t change for other people just be yourself and the right people will come to you! If you need to message me I’m here. I love every one of you! You matter! People may say you’re doing it for attention but if that’s how you feel that’s how you feel! Think of it this way, when people are happy others don’t say they’re doing it for attention! You are *powerful* You are *unique* You are *beautiful* So just remember that and keep your head up and you will find the end of the darkness. You will see the light. Every star sees darkness before they see the light. You are the stars!
Simba916k
It's sad that the only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I don't want to hurt anyone...
Focused
I was dealing with depression before I even realized it.
Wolfy Liisu chan
At age 5 i wanted to be a teacher At the age 8 i wanted ti be an artist Age 11 a youtuber 12-13 age i want to be dead
gacha studio lover
This song reminds me so much of what my best friend wrote when she wrote her last letter only I was in the mother's shoes
FinkerMash
Holy Moley! On track to 20 MILLION VIEWS?! Letting you all know I am in fact still alive, I'm just on this channel now. Make sure to have a look! I love you all x
Ender_Piggy
If you EVER think about ending your life, or are worried that someone you love may be, call this number. (800)-273-8255
anime chica75
I’m dealing with depression and suicidel thoughts and I don’t know why because from what I can tell I do have a good life. But I feel so alone and empty and I don’t know how much longer I can deal with this feeling because I wrote a note to my dad and slipped it under the door and he got kind of violent with me and I got scolded and I cried.. I scare myself and I need help but no one will help me and it’s even more depressing.. if anyone can help me in any way then please do.. I’ve tried everything and nothing has worked and sometimes I just feel like grabbing my pocket knife and slitting my wrist and neck.. I’ve had to stop myself so many times from doing so. The only way I don’t get depressed is when I’m around someone, it doesn’t matter who. Still.. please.. anything will help.
Light Yagami
Is there a way to download or buy this song? Through ITunes or something?
WolfieRainsAcid
I...I don't even...know....my bestfriend...almost....committed suicide...I didn't...realize ..she was...sad.....This..song makes me cry.....
Naomi-chan {dark,bad,depressed}
Anybody else watching this on 2018? 😭 Or am I the only depressed one left😭
Anime Wolf
When I was in 5th grade in primary school i told my 2 friends (in different occasions) that i had Depression.Im not sure what happened after that but I was a huge crybaby back then and would cry easily.Well one of the friends said after school "You should stop crying that much, you would get more popular and more people would like you" Well a year before that, on a game i messaged her saying Hi, you busy?"Cuz i wanted to ask about some homework. Well i did not get a response for a day and later she messaged something along like this: "Noone likes you, your ugly, you have no friends" but like super long and includes some more stuff i can't remember. Now my other friend she also had 'depression'. But she has a huge group of friends aka the popular kids.I would sometimes hang out with them but they did not really like me and did not let me play with some of the boys i liked.She actually did not have depression i can tell but i dont want to get into it. The teacher and me was on normal terms. In grade 6 i was hanging out with the popular kids and this girl come up from behind me, looked at me, sat down in front of me and literally said to the group "Hey you know (insert my name) She spoiled PGL for me" (a trip where you stay with your classmates during the weekend and do fun activitys.And she was in my room. Everyone said "Shes right there" and such but she did not give a shit about it..i acted like nothing was wrong but started cryig when i came in the classroom.Well i refused to tell the teacher what happens but she was really kind and I sat down during maths with my friend who 'had depression' (she was there) Sorry i REALLY needed to tell someone .I hope your still reading.
Alexthekid
please add this on spotify, i would love that
Samira Midgett
I'm depressed now because my friend she's going through this she cries everyday and she cuts herself...
Kawaiigirl 1611
I get bullied at school. But one time a girl slapped me in the face my school did nothing about because it’s not a bully if she didn’t slap me 3 times. So I said if she killed me it’s not a bully But she can only kill me once
Sayori Soup
this song hurts me....
abbi kit
I have a friend who cuts and everyday I try to remind him he's amazing but it doesn't work then I start to worry about losing him I thought the councelers would help but nope if I lose him I'll be next to go
Ninja Cat
This is really sad and made me cry in the middle of class. It made me cry mainly because i relate to it so much.
FallenRoses The Gachatuber
I try telling my friends and family I’m depressed but they let it slip by. I hide it every day, I hide my ”cuts” by wearing a hoodie but gym is a problem since I have to wear short sleeves. So I try to hide the cuts by crossing my arms.
jhuskey87
Clinically: depressed Arms: scared up Wig: snatched Tears: rolling Hotel: trivago
Anime4Life
is it bad that i didn't feel anything? didn't cry? is that bad?
Xaos Caracal
To tell the truth, I don’t know if I have depression, although I can relate to many people on here and my friend who has been diagnosed with depression. I keep on trying to convince myself that I’m fine and that I don’t have depression, but it’s getting worse. I keep on constantly berating myself and have come extremely close to cutting-where it was at the point the knife was almost touching me skin, and to this day, I still don’t know what stopped me except for the promise I made to my depressed friend not to cut. I still cannot be convinced that I have depression, and I still haven’t told anybody anything. Thanks for listening to my rant.
You Can Call Me Vette
All the suicides from cruelty, you will never be forgotten bc you are warriors of God. Loved and held close for eternity.
Darlene Blackwell
All of this is my life since I was 3 I wanna end my life there is no hope in the world depression is like your drowning and everyone else is..breathing.
Avery Thompson
"It's all gone, all over, now she's greeting death..." that part broke me. . . .
Cany0m Dude
The "goodbye" part hit me the most.
Young Blood
I love this song😙i always sing this when am alone
Hopper Central
I relate to this far too much, even though I'm only 13, I'm new to life, and want to end it, I don't see a point, Everyone needs someone to stay, but I won't be missed, I don't want to live in this cruel reality......
namjooniie's old yt
Who else feels hurt?
LaylaTokidokiFan
If you're like this please just remember: Hold On Pain Ends H.O.P.E
Niki Yazdani
This Song Is Amazing, Inspiring, Keeping Me From Committing Suicide. I Am Alive, Well, And Happy In My New Family And Home. I Will Never Forget This Song, I Grew Up With This Song. (I Am Now 16, Soon 17)
Hannah Koy
I'm fine -_-
Hailey fritts
This is me. An example of me. I relate
thinkinqboutu
Every night, who else hugged their pillow tight?
Anne Marie Stamback
im a kid at school and im thi king to kill myself cause i think its my time so goodbye youtube
wolfie cute
wow it hurt my feeling It hurt someone make it *stop* *s-some o-one m-make i-it s-stop*
Nickalotgaming
No one believes me, “you don’t look depressed. Stop joking around, depression isn’t a joke.” I tried warning asking for help, nobody believes me.
inksweet roblox
This is how I feel everyday of my life... 😢😣
Marisol Silva
it’s 2018 and i cry everytime i listen to this song
ThisKy
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